Destined Legends: The Development

This last year I've been so swamped by the various projects that I've been working on behind the scenes, that I've almost forgotten to clue everyone in on exactly what it is that I've been doing! Now that you've read my previous blog on a bit of the story on how Destined Legends begun, I thought I'd take some time to expand upon my actual involvement in the development and what it took to get this thing made. 

Alpha Testing

Early Version of the Destined Legends Playboard

Before we even started looking for artists, we had to make sure we had a pretty solid concept worth our time. I'll tell you one thing, when Ali and Shawn (the games creators) first approached me about this game, I was super intrigued and I couldn't wait to try it. The first play through of the game though was rough. The concepts were definitely there but coming from years of playing JRPGs, MMORPGS, Adventure Games, and so on, the amount of influence we could pull from was enormous! The original version of the game had Boss battles, armor, accessories, high level HP and so on. In a video game this is ok, you slowly learn and find new things as you explore the vast world you've entered into and can spend over 20+ hours of game play to figure it all out. This, in a card game however, is a huge barrier of entry for most people and can quickly turn a new player off before they even give the game a chance; me included. It can be daunting if you are expected to understand everything before you even get a chance to play and we quickly learned what things were over complicating the game. For example, using hit points that equal 1, 5, and 20 is much easier to manage of than numbers above 1000 (it's over 9000!). It's not that the math was overly difficult, but when you are expect to also keep track of maintaining magic points and remembering what accessories have what skill for certain attacks, the game becomes more like dealing with your accounting books before tax time than an enjoyable way to relax with friends.

First play test with people outside of development.

Even after taking out some of the extraneous mechanics, we learned the hard way that not everyone has the same learning curve or understanding of what you assume to be common gaming concepts. After several months of "in house" alpha testing we began to introduce the game to our first round of people outside of development. When we hosted our first play test and focus group, we were rather surprised by results. As pictured above, the first two people who tried out our game had never played a card game like this, let alone RPGs before. What was really interesting for us as developers was to watch people who didn't know any gamer jargon what-so-ever start to not only understand phrases like "you take 10 HP" but use them and even get excited when they get to say it! This first test went surprisingly well, not because the game was in any way perfected, but more so because the two people were genuinely having fun! The downfall however was the time it took for them to learn the games core rules and be able to complete the game in a reasonable time. If I remember correctly this particular play test exceeded 3 hours! 3 HOURS! Thank God for good beers and great company. 

Early Destined Legends play test before any final art was added.

Mind you, our goal was to make this game playable in under an hour, not a several hour endeavor. We understood that the above case was based on the players lack previous knowledge of these types of games, but from the notes we took we were able to re-evaluate why certain aspects of the game took so long, even when we played it between the development team. I think in these first 6 or so months of development we scrapped, added and refined so many aspects of the game that by the time we were ready to enter Beta Testing the game was barely recognizable from the original conception.

Beta Testing 

Testing without a playboard, making sure it wasn't needed for basic play.

The way we went about introducing the game to focus groups was sort of interesting to me.  Instead of starting with "mega gamers" who would no doubt understand the game with out a problem, we started in reverse. The group above consisted of my girlfriend at the time and a good friend from college, neither of which played games often (if they did it wasn't the hard stuff). We then expanded to groups of intermediate/casual players and then people who considered themselves gaming experts. I'm not sure this was intentional for any of us. It may have been an unconscious comfort thing to make sure we wouldn't embarrass ourselves or perhaps we just wanted to challenge the mechanical skills of the game as we got more confident in it. It was likely both reasons, but either way, it worked out to our advantage. This fact forced us to immediately cut out the fat that made the game way too hefty of an idea for the casual player, finding the essence of what was important to the core game then rebuilt it from the bottom up, challenging and improving it each step of the way.

Our core Beta Testing Group near the end of development.

Our core Beta Testing Group near the end of development.

Once we got to a stage that we felt the game had all the elements we wanted in it and that the game was getting close to production we began our most intensive section of testing! At this point we started having multiple games going at once with people who really understood all the rules and asked them to do everything possible to essentially break the game. When we said this, the true creativity of some of our more advanced players came out. They would try layers of different strategies, things that we probably would have never came up with on our own and really challenged us to make sure every rule made sense. I'm really glad that we requested this from our testers because it helped us weed out some really odd ball loop holes from that came from the particular phrases of our rules and little mechanical glitches that worked well in most situations but wouldn't in the very specific situations they would discover.

Open Beta Test Deck [Kickstarter Collector's Release Only]

One thing I must stay that I'm incredibly proud of about this game was how diligently Ali worked on the game's core structure as a whole. He would show me algorithms he developed to keep game play balanced as a player would level up, probabilities that certain attacks would succeed and ratios to insure that cards would be pulled out of the deck at decent rate. I'm not sure that I would have the know how or even have the patience to come up with these things on my own. Ali however had a dream and was determined to make it work. I wasn't there for all the building of the game's mechanics (that was made from Shawn and Ali expertise) but I know seeing how important this endeavor was to them keep myself and all the people who volunteered their time testing this thing, motivated.

In the next blog I will discuss the artistic development and overall creation of the game's design.

Women of Interest

Elizabethan Autumn

Changes to Words of Interest

Words of Interest, as some of you know, is my "word of the day" comic in which I use royalty free victorian artwork (or my Whale an Squid characters) to not only tell a joke, but hopefully teach the reader a new word they may have never had a chance to learn. Personally, out of all my comics, this concept has always been one of my favorites. I love learning new words and finding fun ways to put them in sentences and/or use them in my daily vernacular! Using clip art (borrowed or made by myself) also provides me with the opportunity to work on better jokes because I can spend less time working on art and challenge myself to write something outside of my box. Though, I will admit sometimes I don't land every joke, but really that's the point; This comic is also a writing exercise for me to become a better writer as well.

Victorian Cadence

Victorian Cadence

As much as I love this comic's concept, it has definitely been my least visited site out of all my comics. This for me has always been a shame. A few of my favorite jokes I've ever written are Words of Interest jokes! In the time of my hiatus I've brought prints of some of my favorite Words of Interest and ALT. comics to shows and people have liked them both equally. This for me is reaffirming, though raised questions for me as to why it's not as popular on the internet. After discussing with people here and there I've come to find that people don't even realize that Words of Interest is another L.A.W.L.S. comic. This led me to investigate as to why this may be the case. I began looking through my archives and realized a few things rather quickly. I believe a huge factor in this is that other than the Whale and Squid characters, there really is no L.A.W.L.S. "presence" in them. It dawned on me that I should perhaps add some of my more signature characters, namely Cadence and Autumn.

Example of an Elizabethan dress.

Researching the Era

Considering how much I enjoy the Victorian esthetic I figured this would be a fantastic opportunity to learn more about it and dabble in drawing my own versions of classic styles! I spent some time researching cool Victorian hats, dresses and other things from the time. I learned though that when you search the word Victorian on Google or any other search engine, you also find a lot of overlap in Elizabethan styles as well. Unfortunately I didn't realize this when I first drew Autumn. It was a reader on Facebook that call it to my attention. At first I was worried that this would be something that would ruin the concept, but after further consideration I realized that it didn't really seem to affect what I was going for for the art: the essence of class. So, I decided to go ahead and leave Autumn in a more Elizabethan style but made sure to draw Cadence in Victorian garb. This leads to an interesting side note. The style of dress I chose for Autumn ended up giving her a bit more of a Queen-esque feel, which I liked because I've called her the Goth Queen before.

Examples of Victorian dresses

Victorian hat references

One thing I learned from this research is that I really wish women still wore hats. Maybe not the Victorian styled hats, but there are plenty of elegant choices that I think look really pretty. Am I alone in thinking this? Would any of you ladies out there wear them if the modern fashion provided you with choices that fit what you were wearing? I'm sure there are modern hats out there... but when I've gone to hat stores looking for top hats and such, it seems like most of the women's hats are hats that would only look nice if you were wearing fancy dresses. Even then, I feel like you'd have to be going to an era theme party to wear them. I don't know, maybe I'm weird. Either way, because I liked the way a lot of the hats looked I decided also that I would give Cadence I super flowery and crazy looking one. 

Preview of an upcoming Words of Interest!

Looking Forward

Since I'm talking about Words of Interest so in depth, I'm sure you're wondering what you can look forward to with this project and when I plan to implement all of this. The newly updated Words of Interest will still feature a few comics with the two main Gentlemen I've been using thus far, but I will definitely be adding Cadence and Autumn. If people seem to take to the change well, possibly I'll add the betta fish or even Hatticus and other characters. Is there any particular characters you'd like to see Dapper'd up?  

This is also a good opportunity to announce that the next book I plan to release will very likely be a Words of Interest: Volume 1. The reason being, I will be posting a lot more of these comics while I continue working on L.A.W.L.S. Volume 2 behind the scenes as well as release new ALT comics (the main object here is to be able to make better comics for my readers, while actually being able to post content). There will be more information on this later though. Let's move on to what I'm sure most of you are interested in: when I'll start these comics again!

FERLY  (FER-lee) noun;Something unusual, strange, or causing wonder or terror.

FERLY  (FER-lee) noun;
Something unusual, strange, or causing wonder or terror.

To that I'm gonna say: I've been holding off on posting again until a few things line up. A major thing is the fact that I'm trying to figure out exactly how I'd like to deal with the whole website situation I am in. Up until now I've been hosting several sites for different comics and projects. Remember how I stated above that people didn't quite understand that Words of Interest is in fact part of the L.A.W.L.S. Universe? Well, I think one reason is that it had it's own site. I've recently decided as a way to lower the amount of maintenance I have to do, so that I can focus actual comics, is that I'd like to put all my comics in one place. I'm in talks with a programmer right now who's hopefully gonna help me develop a site that host all 3 comics in one place: L.A.W.L.S., ALT. and Words of Interest. Depending on what we are able to do, the comics are going to either be hosted here at Corvink or at a single L.A.W.L.S. domain. Do you have any opinions on this matter? Frankly it's gonna come down to what we're able to accomplish but I appreciate your opinions. I mean, you are in fact the reason I am doing this! Either way, I'm hoping that in the next few weeks him and I will be able to figure this out and I'll be able to update you all on which it's gonna be. Till then I will continue to post production blogs and post samples of things I'm working on over at the Corvink Facebook.

Source: http://lawls.co/2013/11/13/women-of-intere...

Corvink Has Achieved a Level Up!

  • Strength +1

  • Magic +5

  • Dexterity +3 

  • Intelligence +2

Now, you may be wondering what I'm going on about? Well, in these following ramblings I will explain... but if you don't want to read to much further I'll let you in on the big secret. Corvink got a new website and store! ::cough:: I guess the title of this blog gave that away didn't it? ::cough::

SO... WHAT'S NEW?

A NEW STORE

 

The New Store!

Probably the one of the most exciting updates is that the store is now fully incorporated into the main site. When you click the store button now, you'll notice that the website itself doesn't look entirely different. This used to be because I had two different "backbones" installed for the main site and the store. Each of these installs used their own MySQL databases, coding, css, etc. Let me tell you, this was a really mess to keep maintained. Also, as a designer, this always really bugged me. It didn't feel aesthetically as pleasing for me. For you guys, I'm sure, it also it felt a little off putting and hard to find a way back to the original site from the store the way it was.

With the store fully integrated into the blog, another neat feature is the fact that if you add something to your cart a little white cart pop up will show up at the top right of your screen with any items you've added. This allows you to continue shopping or wander around the site with out being disturbed.

The New Cart Button!

Another note has to do with items I like to consider "going extinct," AKA  ♥ GTFO. This section is basically for items that are on their final run, like the Cactus Green "Save The Environment, Kill Yourself" Shirts.  GTFO simply stands for "Get The Fuck Out" ...of the store and into your hands! I'm not really sure how often items will go here, but when the item has seen the end of it's days and is ready to go extinct I'll let you guys know and list it there. 

Finally, one the coolest new features is that Corvink now has an SSL certificate and is able to securely take credit cards directly with out you having to use Paypal!  I've been wanting to set something like this up for quite a long time but could not afford to do so until now!

Character Bios and Social Media

New Characters Bio Page

The character's bio page is something I'm also excited about, especially since I've had to take so much time off of the comics lately. Even though I haven't had a chance to work on them (which by the way my tablet is broken at the moment), I do occasionally tweet as my characters. The reason for this is that it keeps me in their mindsets while being able to have them interact and continue to explore them as individuals via twitter.  This image shows some of the things I updated for this section (or you know, you can just click the link in the menu bar or whatever). What's new is the links to their social media accounts, a live twitter feed and links to their full character appearances at the individual comic sites.

Ok Great, What's Next? 

The new site is all fine and dandy, but when the hell am I gonna get back to doing some art? Well, I must apologize about my absence lately in that department, trust me, I feel extremely guilty about this. As I mentioned above, my tablet somehow stopped working just a few days before San Diego Comic-Con! Because of it's unfortunate timing, I wasn't able to fix it before I left and now that the convention has been over, I've been working full force trying to make Corvink a legit business. This means that I've had to do all kinds of behind the scenes projects that don't really output much visual candy for you guys. In the past few months I've been working to set up Quickbooks (for book keeping), come up with a SKU system for my merchandise, file for a tax ID and tons of other boring things that adults apparently have to do to have their own small businesses. I've also had to redo my office for better workflow and organization, find a new company that could handle my shirt printing, get said shirts printed, design other products I've wanted to make for some time (like the new shot glasses) and get ready for next years convention exhibits! It's crazy running a one man show like this... even though it's based on my art work, I can't ignore the business end of creating or else I can't find a way to financially continue this... catch 22 is that it's put me in a tough spot of not being able to work on art either. Sigh.

Anyway, now that this site is done, I have a few more behind the scenes things I need to get done (including fixing my tablet) then I'll be back on the art horse and riding it into the artistic battle once again! 

2013 LET'S DO THIS!

Why hello all you fancy humans, it's been a while since I've written a long ended post... I apologize, both for always writing long ended posts AND because I haven't been keep you brain things in the loop as to what is going on in the world of Corvink and L.A.W.L.S.! I've had some comments on Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr and the like, both incredibly touching and extremely rude from different people wondering what's going on. For those of you who have expressed your concerns for my well being, I thank you dearly for your support. When I see these things it reminds me of exact why it is that I create. For you. For the trolls who don't seem to understand that I am in fact not a binary coding language that creates on a whim, but rather a mere mortal being who's creations are dependant on my personal well being, all I can say to your comments is this. Now Gentlemen, Gentlewomen and Horidtrolls, let us venture into the hypothetical reality that is the year 2013:

L.A.W.L.S. UNIVERSE

I know for a lot of you, the reason you've followed me through the years is because of my comics. As readers it sucks to feel abandoned by your creator right as you begin to feel so invested in the characters you've been following for some time. For this, I am sorry. I too miss my characters and am dying to get back to writing them! That being said, I have in fact been writing again... quite a bit actually. I've stock piled a number of Words of Interest, drawn a few ALTs with a few more on the drawing board and written out the first half of Vol. 2 of L.A.W.L.S.! For some of you I'm sure your thinking: "Woah you tease! WHY ARE YOU WITHHOLDING!?!" Well... It's simple. I wanted to make sure that I could really do this again and truly dedicate myself to my art. BUT to do that, I needed to understand a bit about myself first.

In the last half of 2012, I spent most of my time soul searching and questioned everything about myself, including what I was doing with my life. Obviously, that meant that I needed to sit and think about my comics... why am I drawing them? To understand that inquiry I had to go pretty far down into myself to understand my motives for doing pretty much anything. I realized that my raison d'etre, or reason for being, is to give. I've always been a helper. I studied psychology in my undergrad at University with the hope I could one day be a therapist. I still do work with individuals who have Autism as a part time job, but that in itself has never been enough for me. It took me a while to understand and accept why this is. I found that as much as enjoy helping these families that I work with, that the creative side of my mind can't really handle not creating. From writing music in high school to drawing comics through college, my hands have always had to be making something. This lead me to believe for a stint of time that my raison d'etre isn't to give, but to create... but I quickly realized that these things are not mutually exclusive. To put you heart and soul, your blood and tears and every ounce of yourself into your creations, in hopes that you could affect even one person in a positive light, is, in itself giving. The reason I create is to give a part of myself to those of you who I can make smile, laugh or feel connected to something, in some way. This is is why I make comics.

Acknowledging this fact, I began to fall back in love with drawing, writing and all that I've done in the past few years. The thing now is, I have to insure myself that I won't cross that line again where I literally sacrifice my well being over my work. My way of doing this was to work ahead, make sure that I'll be able to post on a regular schedule while spending a reasonable amount of time on other parts of my life that are important! Now that I've gotten a pile of comics done, the time is near when I will be posting again! So... let me give a bit of a tentative schedule as to how I'd like to post in the next few weeks.

NEXT WEEK, I'm gonna take it easy and just ease into posting: Tuesday - WORDS OF INTEREST & Thursday - WORDS OF INTEREST

THE FOLLOWING WEEK, and hopefully all weeks that follow will look something like this: Monday - ALT, Wednesday - WORDS OF INTEREST & Friday - WORDS OF INTEREST

Once I get into the flow of things, I'd like to start adding some L.A.W.L.S. back into the mix... but lets make sure first that I can get these up! Sound fair?

CORVINK

Now that I've explained everything with the comics, let's talk about Corvink! Realizing how much I love art, I found that posting comics the way I was before my hiatus, I started loathing them! I think this is because I cease to explore other things that interest me. I am not JUST a webcomic artist, I am an creator! Which means I want to create! So, how do I rectify this, this time around? Well it's obvious. I need to focus on making art pieces, explore the world of gallery exhibits, and tinker with ideas that interest me. I wont be doing this as much as comics, but I will be part of the overall agenda and very important to why Corvink exists! Along with this, I'm also going to be exploring other things like clothing, jewelry, toys, sculptures... etc. It's easy to see this as me just wanting to become a "glorified merch dealer," but that is simply not the case. In the years that I have been exhibiting at conventions, I've seen some of the most creative people in the world bring some of the most amazing and unique things to the floor. I wan't to be one of those people. Not just someone who shits out a new shirt design just to make a few bucks. Rather someone who can make items that you not only recognize because they are cool and unique, but something that connect with and want because they make you happy in some way! My mission for 2013 is to try to bring more of just that to the table! AND with your help and support, I'm sure that I can! So, let's move on to this years scheduled events. (If you know of any others, please, let me know! I'd love to try to do as many more of these as I can.)

EVENTS

  • Emerald City Comicon - Seattle, WA | March 1-3

  • Pancakes & Booze - Los Angeles, CA | May 3-4

  • Phoenix Comicon - Phoenix, AZ | May 23-26

  • Anime Expo - Los Angeles, CA | July 4-7

  • San Diego Comic Con - San Diego, CA | July 11-15

Destined Legends: The Birth of a New Idea

Recently I’ve been posting quite a bit on Twitter about and reblogging post from a mysterious entity called “Destined Legends.” At this point, I’m sure some of you have noticed, and many of you may have even followed the links and looked into it a bit, that DL is a Trading Card Game. Once you get there though, I’m sure some of you are confused as to why I keep talking about it. I know there is no readily apparently explanation as to what my involvement in it is, so, I thought that now would be as good of a time as any to sit down and explain both what this project is and what it is that I am doing with it.

WHAT IS DESTINED LEGENDS?

As I stated, Destined Legends is a Trading Card Came, a bit like Magic the Gathering but much more like those old school turn based J-RPGs from the 1990 to early 2000s (example include Final Fantasy, Breath of Fire, and even Pokemon). As long as I can remember my buddy Ali Showkati (the creator of the game) has always talked about making an RPG. When him and I were in Highschool he often spoke about making a video game with the same title and how he wanted ME to do the art for it. As time passed though, we both moved away for college and started working on different individual projects. I had almost forgotten that he even had this idea in his mind until recently when he re-approached me with the concept; now as a card game that him and his brother had been secretly working on. I was blown away by how far along they had come with the concept already and decided, about a year ago, that I was gonna do my best to help them make this project happen! 

In the past year, that I’ve actively been a part of the games development, this game has come a long way. We’ve developed plenty of really unique and fun mechanics that I haven’t seen in card form before. We’ve done everything we could to make sure, though we wanted it to have the same feel, that it was nothing like Magic the Gathering. After month and months of Alpha and now Beta testing, I can say, we have definitely accomplished making something rather unique that I think anyone who was a fan of J-RPGs would appreciate. 

When Ali first re-posed this idea to me as a Trading Card Game, one of the first things that he had asked me was if I’d like to do the artwork for it. As much as I would love to be the lead artist on a project such as this, I told him that I honestly did not have the time to draw something sophisticated enough to be able to pull in a good audience. Not to mention, at the time, I was posting L.A.W.L.S., ALT and WOI attempting to kill my brain by over working it. Besides, I felt like there possibly was an artist more suited for such a project; someone who could pull off fantasy art better than myself. As those of you who have followed me for some time now, you know I draw “scene” girls better than anything else; Wouldn’t really work well for a fantasy project. It didn’t take long for us to realize that we have friends who do AMAZING work who we should approach about the project; Cari Corene of Toilet Genie: Story of the Door and Scott Ferguson of Nerf This & Scout Crossing, were the first we asked, and were on board immediately!

At this point I’m not really able to discuss much more about mechanics of the game or reveal much of anything in terms of art, but here are a few sample sketches by Scott: 

WHAT DOES CORVINK HAVE TO DO WITH IT?

So that is pretty much the history of the game, but that doesn’t answer the question of what it is that I’m doing as part of this game, really. I hinted at the fact that, yes, I am one of three of the primary game developers along side Ali and his brother Shawn, but haven’t really said much as to what I will be doing long term with this project. Because of the level of work required from me in Graduate School, I won’t be doing much on the visual side of this game (ie. Art). What I will be doing however is continuing to develop and finalize the game mechanics in the next month or so (we are damn close to this already) AND helping them with the behind the scenes business end responsibilities: Marketing, Distribution, and Promotion (namely that of the upcoming Kickstarter campaign which I will have more info on soon because this is going to be one of the most important part of making this game actually happen). Out side of that, I will actually be doing some art! I know I stated that Cari and Scott will be doing the art, and that they are the best suited for the project, but, because of their work loads and such, we discussed and found certain cards that I am very well suited towards doing, and will be doing soon. I will be revealing small elements of what I’m working on here on this page and on my Instagram account.

Hopefully you guys now have a good understanding of what it is that I’ve been doing these past weeks and plan on doing in the months to come! Don’t worry, this doesn’t mean that I’m stopping Corvink or any of my other projects by any means! This is just the project that has to be worked on at the moment, not only because I’m passionate about the idea, but because I believe in my friend’s concept and think that you guys will enjoy it! That being said, make sure to follow their Tumblr, Twitter and Facebook accounts to keep updated on their progress!

August & Everything After

Upcoming Conventions!

Corvink Convention Display

The last stretch of Convention season is afoot! There are two more conventions that I will be exhibiting at in 2012. Comikaze on Sept.15-16 in Los Angeles California and Designer Con on November 3rd in Pasadena California. Unfortunately I wasn’t able to get a hold of Comikaze in time to get them to change the name I’m exhibiting under, so if you’re looking for me in the program, I’ll be listed as L.A.W.L.S. still. Designer Con on the other hand has changed the information for me. In both cases I still don’t know my booth numbers though. SO I’ll keep you posted on that!

You can always check the Appearances Page for a full list of conventions I will be at, with updates on table locations and all that as the cons get closer to their dates.

Սէր “Love” Print Available!

Love Print

I hadn’t really made a formal announcement about this prints release, so I may as well make it now. This piece is probably one of the most personal ones I’ve ever created, and though I don’t think it may make sense to everyone, I felt the need to make it for my own peace. It is obviously full of different symbolism, all of which mean something very dear to me, but rather than explain it, I’d rather you derive your own meanings from looking at it. That being said, I will include this short little poem thing that I wrote that explains it to some extent:

“Only in this death could I be reborn,

but know that my love has never wavered,

for it is your heart that I cherish.”

The word on the heart “Սէր,” is the Armenian word for “Love,” which is what the piece is named after.

Anyway, it is now available at the store and you can buy one Here!

GO H.A.M. Print Available September 4th

Go H.A.M. Prints

I finished this print just last night and did some color test prints today through my printers. So far I’m incredibly pleased by the way they turned out! The colors are very nice and I think they will look great on my convention displays and on peoples walls. Unfortunately because I will be going on a trip first thing next week, I wont have time to do a full production run of these and made the decision to release them when I return so that there are no complications or delays on order shipments.

For those of you who are curious what “GO H.A.M.” even means, it is a reference to a Kayne West / Jay-Z song entitled “H.A.M.” which is one of the most ridiculous concepts to me. To further it’s absurdity I decided to make it into a parody of the classic ”Rosie the Riveter” (aka “We Can Do It!”) Print, just for fun. Honestly though, don’t even ask me where the concept came from beyond that. I was just in a silly mood at the gym when that song came on and the concept popped into my head. Since it made ME laugh, I figured it would make someone else laugh too!

I’ll keep you guys posted on it’s release via one of my social networks.

Nazar Necklaces Available Mid-September

Nazar Necklaces

I’m really excited about releasing these. This is something I’ve wanted to do ever since I started Anhedonia Blue. The reason for the delay on release of this is mainly due to the fact that because they are handmade they take some time to make. I wan’t to be able to have a full stock on hand for Comikaze next month (there are 18 total right now), so I decided it would be best to hold off till after that convention to release them online. After that show is over I’ll get anything that is left online the week after September 16th. Depending on demand at the show and online after the fact, I’ll be able to better access whether they are worth their time in production or not. They don’t have a set price just yet as I’ve been doing research on similar product pricing, but I do know that they will be priced slightly different based on the size of the pendant. It may be hard to tell from the photo, but there are actually two different sizes available (I’ll have to remeasure the pendants themselves before I can give you a set size). There is a smaller one and a slightly larger one for those who want the eye to be more pronounced. The lace itself is 18inches long.

Again, Follow Corvink on the various social networks and I will post updates on their release ASAP.

What Does CORVINK Mean?

Since a lot of people have been asking me exactly what the word “Corvink” and my logo means, I decided it was time to explain. So without further ado, let’s start with the name!

THE NAME

Corvink is not a real word, it is something I created based on a something that means a lot to me. It is a combination of two words blended together. Corvine + Ink. So what, you may ask, is “corvine” then?

COR·VINE (adjective)

  1. pertaining to or resembling a crow.

  2. belonging or pertaining to the Corvidae, a family of birds that include crows, ravens, and jays.

So, it’s just a bird? Why does that mean anything to me? This is where it get’s sort of tricky to explain because the Corvidae family, for me, and many other people have a plethora of different symbolisms. Each bird has it’s own line of symbols, which is why I decided to use the word “Corvine” to symbolize a layer of meanings rather than just saying “Crow” or “Raven,” that tend to have more singular symbols.

For instance, several southwestern tribes see the raven as a harbinger of light that escaped from the darkness of the cosmos. They associate this bird with creation because it was what brought light where there was darkness previously. It’s also a known fact that ravens are very intelligent birds, which is why they show up in literature and pop culture as such. Think back to Edgar Allan Poe’s “The Raven,” or even the Ravenclaw house in Harry Potter. 

The other important part of the corvine identity is the crow part. Depending on the culture, a crow can mean different things. For the Celts, they believed that the crow was an omen of death and conflict. For other cultures they are seen as the watchers of the dead. But, in almost all cases, they are associated with some sort of death. In fact pay close attention in movies (this may start spoiling things for you so you may want to skip the next sentence) often writers and directors will place a crow in a scene a bit before a character is about to die to foreshadow their death. It may not always be the character you predict, but its often there for that reason. Random other fact, a group of crows is called “a murder,” seriously. Anyway, I’m sure you’re starting to think, why is this dude being so damn morbid? I know it can be taken as that, but for me it’s not an obsession with death, rather a celebration of life. For me, having death close enough to remind me that life could end at any time, it will happen, no matter what… I think to myself: live, now. Don’t be afraid to enjoy the moment, do the things you want to do and be with the people who are present in your life, because at any moment, any one of us may no longer be here. Don’t let that crow weigh you down, he may be watching over you but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t give him a show. Create, sing, dance, love and live to give him the finger and prove to him that your life was worth living before it all ends.

So that describes the Corvine prefix to my made up word. The second part is simple and plays into what I said about giving the crow the finger. Ink is my way of giving my life meaning, through my art; it gives my life that beauty and purpose, it makes people laugh and smile, and hopefully give complete strangers some sort of connection to something to remind them (as I often need to remind myself), they are not alone. In that, I hope that my art can continue to speak to people and give them a part of that life that the crow wants to take from us.

THE LOGO

Now that you know the meaning of corvines, it’s easy to understand some of the next stuff. Being that the crow represents that of death, using a skull shows that not even the symbol of death can live forever, it can be defeated through us living our lives. That part is more obvious, but the other part isn’t as much.

People keep asking me why it is that I have a target on it’s head. It’s actually not a target. It is a nazar, or evil eye stone. Nazars are amulets meant to protect against the evil. Evil, like the crow watching you ready for your death, surrounds us constantly. When the darkness begins to weigh over your soul, when work gets hard, your love life feels dim, your friends abandon you…it’s easy to be overcome by it. Trust me, this is something that I’ve been currently dealing with a lot in my life. It’s the sort of darkness that unbeknownst to me had take me over these past few years, to a point that I let it flood my decisions, control my fears and threatens to destroy so much of what I love. Because of this, more now than ever, I need that protection… and more so, I need the other symbol of why I put the eye on it’s forehead of all places.

If you know anything about eastern traditions, you may have heard of Chakra? Without going into it too much, Chakra are believed to be centers of the body from which a person can collect energy. Having a healthy flow between these is what allows us to reach spiritual enlightenment and a healthy, happy soul. Knowing that, I can hopefully just jump into saying that the location of the evil eye is because of what is known as the sixth chakra, or “third eye” (aka the mind’s eye). It is located above the eyebrows in the forehead. The sixth chakra involves our mental and reasoning abilities, and our psychological skill at evaluating our beliefs and attitudes. Basically, to seek only the truth. (Remember how the raven is considered a symbol of intelligence? This is another reason I used the vague word of corvine, because if I said just crow, this part wouldn’t be incorporated into it.)  In my life right now, reasoning is what feels the most important to me. So many changes are happening within and around me, and it’s easy to feel lost. There has been so much that I have had to reevaluate and think about what it is that I believe and want from my life. In deciding to create this new brand, taking my art in a new direction away from just drawing comics all day, I needed a reminder of that.

Corvink is my celebration of life, through art, a rebirth in myself designed to leave my darkness behind and take charge of my direction from here on out. I will not forget what it took me to get here and what I now have to be because of it. I will move my life forward, through this.

Q&A: L.A.W.L.S. Vol. 1 Production F.A.Q.

When will I receive my Hardcover copy?

I actually spoke briefly with my printers on this topic today. The books themselves (all 1900 of them, including soft and hardcovers) are approaching the coast as we speak. Unfortunately the guy I spoke to wasn’t able to give me an ETA on exactly when I could expect them, but they should be at the Long Beach port soon. Once they arrive, Jefbot and I will be renting a U-Haul and picking up both his and my books at the same time. One possible complication my arise, depending on if they arrive next week or not, where I may possibly be out of town. If this happens, I will attempt to arrange something with Jeff to pick them up OR we will just get them when I get back, the first week of September. Once they are in my hands, give me about a week to package, finish any last sketches I owe to you guys, and ship them to you. Basically, this whole thing is based on whenever the boat decides to float on over to California!

I upgraded to a Hardcover Edition and received a Softcover, WHAT DO I DO?

I’m aware of this issue and I apologize for this mishap. Fortunately this only happened to a very small handful of you. I checked my records and a majority of the upgrades had not been shipped just yet. If you were one of the few you received a soft cover, please contact me directly. I have come up with a few different ways to resolve this issue with you. Regardless of which choice you choose, I will be offering anyone effected by this a discount coupon for your next Corvink purchase on top of whatever it is that we discuss as a solution.

If other people have received their Softcover Edition of L.A.W.L.S. Vol.1, why haven’t I?

This is completely my fault. In the sea of shit that hit the fan this past few months, I completely miscalculated the amount and sizes of shipping materials I was going to need to get the number of books/prints/sketches all out to you guys. I’m sorry for the delay, but I’m just waiting for new materials to arrive. Once they come in, I will finish the rest of the orders and send them out to you. Remember though that next week I will be on a much needed vacation, and wont be able to fill orders til I return. I appreciate your patience, this whole ordeal has been quite the learning experience for me and I apologize that you’ve all had to deal with my learning curve. Luckily Vol.2 or any other books that I produce in the next years, I will know how to better get them to you in a timely matter!

When will I receive my Canvas Printing of the L.A.W.L.S. Vol.1 Cover?

Due to the fact that these are limited edition, special orders, I’ve had to deal with these separately from the production of the books. Not only do they need their own production times, they have to be shipped as “over-sized” packages. Because of this, they will take a bit of time to arrive to your houses. I will be having them shipped directly from the printers that I’ve found, to you, so I will at no point handle them. I believe for the most part they should be getting to you by the end of September, unless you are International (which I know some of you are). In the case of International shipment, please be patient. Due to customs and other things I’m probably not aware of, they may take some time to get to you.

When will you be resuming your comics? 

This is the question I have been getting the most from you guys. It definitely makes me happy to see that you guys are still enthusiastic about my work and nothing would make me happier to get them back out to you ASAP, but this is the one problem that will have the longest solution, unfortunately. These last few months I’ve been in a rather deep form of self-exploration/understanding, planning, and re-evaluation. As much as it saddens me to say this, I’m coming to realize that the comic (the way that I was going about it anyway) had become a form of poison that was slowly seeping into all parts of life. I had at some point become so focused on making sure that I was able to get a post up 3 times a week (with the ambition to get them to 5 times a week) that I started ignoring my future plans (ie. Grad School), my girlfriend, my friends, my dog, and my health. For some reason, I weighed the importance of the comic itself as #1 and it took up nearly 90% of my time… only leaving me 10% to try to make time for all those other things that in all honestly, I’m finding are far more important to me in the long run. I don’t want to wake up 20 years from now looking back at all the life that I missed out on because I took a foolish risk on something that I may or may not have turned into something successful by that time. Now, don’t miss understand me here. It almost sounds like I’m saying “COMIC DONE, NO MORE WILL EVER BE MADE.” This is not the case. I’ve just had to find and figure out a different approach on how to release them on a regular basis with out sacrificing the rest of my life to do so. My main focus at the moment is myself; namely, I need to focus on my future. How do I not only balance the creations I love to create with my personal life AND make them successful? To answer that question, truly is gonna take some time. I’ve now been accepted to Grad School in Business and plan to use the information to better understand how to make my art an actual working and functioning business WHILE at the same time creating a back up plan for another job if I by chance find that art will not get me the life that I need to live. This is the thing I lost focus on. What is it that I NEED out of my life? I’m not looking for fame and fortune… but I am however looking to better myself as a person, a person who can be a valuable part of society, friendships, family, and most importantly… be able to be emotionally and physically available in a loving relationship. It saddens me deeply that I lost sight of this. That being said, I have been able to figure out quite a number of things in the past 2 months. I’ve started to develop a plan on how to go about the comics, but I really need to start Grad School full time, get into the meat of what it meats to be a Grad Student… and THEN see if the plan I have in mind will be able to balance into that. I feel like it will, but until I’m sure, I don’t want to give you guys a final answer and disappoint you if that particular plan falls through. Anyway, rest assured, I am working on a plan. I’d like to complete L.A.W.L.S. and Anhedonia Blue and continue ALT. and Words of Interest, just please, continue to be patient with me. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, but to truly understand why all this had to happen, the way that it did, only time will reveal the answers. And if I take my time to resume my work, find myself in a better state of mind and life, I think the quality of work I give out to you guys will show and it will all be worth the wait.

The Explanation and the Plan

Let me start this all of by apologize to you all for my lack of posting. I realize I owe you all an explanation as to why I’ve sorta gone off the map. It’s sort of hard to find the words as to how to explain this, but I will do my best. I feel it’s necessary for me to be transparent, at least to some extent, about what’s going on in my life for you all to fully understand what’s going on… and who knows, maybe some of my experience (that I’m about to explain) can help some of you who are going through similar things to work on your own self developments.

The Cause of My Silence

On the 4th of July, my girlfriend of nearly 5 years and I broke up. It was something we both felt was coming and needed to happen for a various number of reasons… but all the same, I’m absolutely heart broken. I love this girl from the bottom of my heart, she has been behind me from the time of me graduating college, deciding that Psychology (which is what i got my degree in) wasn’t my path and then finding and further exploring the idea of comics and my true passion of making art my job. For this, I am forever grateful. Even though we’ve had hard times, her spirit has always been able to lift me into a positive light and keep me focused into doing exactly what it is that I want to do. Without her, L.A.W.L.S. and all my other creations would have never gotten this far. She was a large part of what motivated me to continue but unfortunately, my motivation took over all other points of my sight. I’ve become so overworked by this comic, the cons, my book, etc. that I stopped paying attention to the things that mattered and more so what things were going wrong in our relationship. I let it get worse and worse thinking that I’ll be able to work on things “as soon as I just got through this one hurdle with my comic.” But, as things go with webcomics, the second you’re done with one, you have to start the next… and I simply just didn’t make the needed time for her.

The Effect of Realization

After the break up happened I went into a deep mode of self evaluation and assessment as to exactly what it is that I want out of life. Is it being a webcomics artists? Is it having my own business? What is it that is so important to me that I’m letting my life get so out of hand for? This is not an easy thing to figure out or pose the exact question/answer to. I was born to create something, whether it be music, art or comics… it’s in my blood and it’s what I do. So I refuse to stop, but at what cost? Must I sacrifice all else to make sure it happens? Is art my only dream? I decided it was best to start from the top of the tower of questions and went with, “Is my art my only dream?” The answer to that is simply “no.” I want to be able to be secure, emotionally and financially, I want to one day get married and have kids AND I want to be able to create and make my own job of it. Realizing this, I’ve had to sort out what about my creations are the most valuable to me as far being able to make the rest of my dreams come true. In my sorting of things, I’ve come to find that the lowest common denominator in my decline of my relationships (friend, family and significant other), my health, my happiness and many other things is how much I slave over my comics. As much as I love doing them, I make less than minimum wage a year on the comics itself (be it with advertising revenue or online sales). So what does THAT mean? To me it means this: I need to refocus my creations to what seems to actually be working for me. The products I make, though their sales are very minimal online do fantastic at conventions. It came down to me realizing that a large portion of people who buy my stuff at shows are actually not readers, they are just random attendees who come up and see something that caught their eyes. Some of these people turn into readers when I tell them what it is that the products are about, but even within that group it is minimal. So, it seems what DOES work for me, is the business and merchandising end of my comics, not the comics themselves. Knowing that, and the fact that I’m going to be starting Grad School in business soon, it feels like THAT is what I need to be working. From my words it almost sounds like I’m about ready to quit comics all together, but let me assure you, I’m not. I just need to take time to restructure my business model toward the things that actually work the best so that I can move forward with my life. You guys don’t know what it means to me that you’ve supported me this long so I owe it to you to continue creating awesome things, including comics, in return for your kindnesses. So, here I move into future planning for the following:

L.A.W.L.S. Vol.1

I received a small box of these while I was at San Diego Comic Con this weekend and am super excited to FINALLY have them (at least some of them) in hand! This week I’m going to be working a few background projects, but I will also be starting to get everything together (ie, prints, sketches, etc) and prepping what I have to ship to those of you who pre-ordered the book on Kickstarter. I haven’t worked out the details just yet, but I think I’ll be going down the list from those of you who pledged the most first down to the ones who pledged just for the book. When I receive the rest of the books I will then ship out the rest. As for those of you who upgraded the the hard covers, I have yet to receive those, what was sent to me was a rush order so I could try to sell books at SDCC, so I’ll keep you updated as to when those come in via Kickstarter.

The L.A.W.L.S. Universe

This is the section I’m assuming you are all the most worried about. So, let me alleviate some of your worries. I’m still not quite ready to jump back into cracking jokes at the moment, I need a bit more time until I’ll be ready to get back on board with that… but when I do, what I plan to do is at least post once a week. 1 Alt strip or 1 Words of Interest… depending on my work load. I have no idea what to expect out of grad school, so if I have some light weeks maybe I’ll be able to get both an ALT and a WOI out, but other weeks it may have to JUST be a WOI. I know that this is a very inconstant way to work on these and post for you guys… but what really matters to me is the quality of each post, while finding balance in my life so that I can continue create these things for you and get them into really amazing looking books to promote at shows.

L.A.W.L.S. Vol.2

Here is the most difficult to address. I still don’t have a full battle plan for this one. I will be working on the writing, sketch work and creation of this, but as far as releasing it online… frankly, I have no idea how long it will take and if I’m going to spend the time putting it together, I want to make sure it’s the best thing I’ve ever created. That being said, patience with this will have to be a virtue for all of us. I will post updates with photos and such once the penciling begins and keep you guys in the loop during it’s entire production.

Grad School and the Future

At San Diego Comic Con, one thing became bleedingly obvious to me. It’s something that I’ve needed to realize to ever come to terms with what it is need to do. I am not a webcomic artist. I am an artist who happens to passionately create a comic that is published on the web. That being said, I need to focus on fully developing the artist part of me, the part that wants to create more than just comics and encompass all my creations under one banner, or brand rather. From the drive down to San Diego, through the discussion with my good friends who have had to conquer similar things (like Daniel and Jason), until last night, I’ve been working on this idea. I’ve been creating a new name, logo, business model, etc. that will be just that, a company that IS my art prints, t-shirts, comics, future plushies and more. I will begin working this concept today starting with re-branding Rush Haven a bit to make sure that it has it’s own obvious identity (a webcomic store for webcomic artists), then begin working on incorporating parts of the way that I designed that site into what continues to be my own personal branding. I wont have anything to reveal any time soon, but I will post updates to keep you in the loop. What’s really exciting about this to me, is that this is exactly what I will be working on with my MBA. I will be creating my own company, learning about how to brand and market it and still be able to be doing the things that I truly love, drawing and making comics and other artistic things. I haven’t yet been accepted to the university of my choice just yet, but I’ve been talking with them every few days. They seem excited about what it is I’m doing and seem to be indicating that I’ll have a spot in their institution… SO, if all goes well I will be starting that as soon as September.

Conclusion

As much as it pains me to admit to myself some of what I’ve said in this blog… the things that I’ve discovered about myself and what I NEED to do are all true. I can’t blindly crawl down a path with hope that one day a blaring light will shine and things will work out if all signs on my current path are proving to deepen this darkened hole. I needed all of this to be able to lift my head out from the darkness and find that light myself. I am scared to death of what all this truly means, but I am grateful that what has happened has happened. I have faith that things are now on an incline for me even though I’m am heart broken and fear that I may not ever be able to rectify what happened between her and I… but realize that I now have a chance to repair myself, work not only on one part of my dream, but to be able to better myself in a way that I will be able to accomplish all parts of my dreams; family, health, security and creation. I am sorry if some of these choices come to a disappointment to some of you, but I want to thank you, each and every one of you, for your constant support. You are what make this worth it to me, to see the joy on peoples faces at shows when they laugh and smile at my stuff, to read your kind comments of how you like my comics… those are the things that keep me sure that I should keep going, and will. So, Let’s continue our journey together, and keep creating something awesome!

Q&A: Anhedonia Blue

Didn't you have another comic that wasn't L.A.W.L.S. or Words of interest?

Yes I do, Anhedonia Blue (or ABlue) is the name of my other comic. Unfortunately it is still on hiatus until further notice. The reason for this is that the story at the time was starting to require me to draw beyond my artistic skill sets… I didn’t want to try to grid thru it and make it look bad since the art and story in that comic specifically is so important to me. As L.A.W.L.S. was gaining in popularity I started to focus on that comic more because, to be completely candid with you, as much as I love doing all comics I need to focus on the project that has the highest potential to pay the bills. That doesn’t mean that I love one project more than the other or that ABlue has been completely forgotten.. When I get opportunities I still write for it and have been working out visual kinks in my head. In the time that ABlue has been on hiatus I’ve grown immensely as an artist and get more and more excited about bringing it back. I appreciate that you are still interested in the project and I promise it will return eventually. Keep following me on Twitter, Facebook, G+, or whatever you use… and I’ll keep you informed on it’s progress.